Friday, September 21, 2007


BEFORE I WAS A MOM I made and ate hot meals. I had unstained clothing. I had quiet conversations on the phone. I slept as late as I wanted and never worried how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday. I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies. I never thought about immunizations. I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers. I had complete control of my mind, My thoughts, and my body. I slept all night. I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small can affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I had never gotten up in the middle of the night to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the love, the heartache, the wonder, or the satisfaction of being a Mom. Now I know how my Mom felt...

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